Hi frnds.. My new blog that moment I realized what is love. Its basically giving you one of the most important aspect of love.
This storyis all about me kritika , my BF soham and our mutual friend aakash. This is not a love triangle , just a story what happend between us. You know We met someone and fallin love with that guy but is it true love?? Is it what we expect from our lover and if it is not then what is love. We all were in college , me and soham were in a relationship from school and went to college with same passion but one day I ended up kissing another guy. It happened I was a bit surprised by what happened, that kiss felt... right. So, what happened? After being with my boyfriend for over ten years, I had started to feel that I didn’t love him. I got more convinced about this when I became friends with Aakash. Aaksah is mutual friend of me and soham. We would spend time together, all day in college and after classes as well. Because his PG was near my flat, he would come over often. In a couple of months, we grew really close to each other, so much so that I often told him things that I had never told my boyfriend. It wasn’t just infatuation or attraction , it was something more… my feelings for him grew stronger with time, and no matter how much I tried to ignore them, I just couldn’t. My boyfriend started feeling a little insecure about Aakash and would often tell me to stay away from him. He even had words with aakash but nothing could stop us and one day that kissed happened. And I even tried doing so, but it didn’t help. I do not want to hurt soham he was with me throughout my life but now he has changed , he is taking my all decision , even without my concern if i am happy or not. I just started living in my flat because we can spend some time together but all time he wants sex as i m just sex doll for him and going to satisfy him everytime. Where is the love, a passionate time what we spend together. Everything has gone and on the other hand Aakash make me feel better , she listend me, guides me. Everybody around me sensed that there was something going on between Aakash and me. Even I kind of knew it was developing into something more than friendship but I was just not ready to accept it. How could I accept that I had feelings for my friend when I claimed to be in love with someone else already? And even worse, how could I tell my boyfriend this? How could I tell anyone about this? How do I explain these contradictory feelings? I would stay up all night thinking about this, and with each passing day it kept getting all the more difficult for me. I couldn’t understand why this was happening to me. Then one night I just poured my heart out to Aakash, and while I was talking he kissed me. I kissed him back, and it didn’t feel wrong. I knew I had to tell soham about it. It had gone too far and I needed to confess to him what I felt for Aakash. So, I gathered all the courage I could, looked him in the eyes and told him everything, two days after that kiss happened. I kind of had an inkling that he saw this coming but nothing could prepare me for that disgusted expression he had on his face. we both, me and aakash were there to help him and going to expalin him what is went wrong with him but he is not ready for that he just started hitting me and even aakash too , Aaksah did not move but he ensure nothing hurt me but suddenly soham really started hitting hard to both of us but aakash was between me and soham. And suddendly soham pushed us and i got hurt then aakash hit him back and that moment i realized what is love...… he left the place and It’s been a year since the day I told soham the truth, and I have finally understood what happened with him. He was sorry for that moment what to make love with me but i denied i completely denied and once again i saw his real face when he said to me we are fuck buddiess. All that time i was concluded that When I met soham, I was in love with the idea of love, and just started liking him. He also liked me and we started seeing each other and eventually got into a relationship. May be he is angry on me but i loved him so much but now i moved and he should be. it was never a true love with him. when we did first time we both were very young and immature and like everyother cases sex become more imporatant than anything else. I started living in flat alone because for soham, I do not want to say he is one and only responsible, me too. But when I met Aakash, I felt what falling in love really meant, and I couldn’t ignore it. I still feel guilty for hurting soham but he deserved it. when you are in love you just want happiness for other love one, nothing matter. Aaksah want my happiness nothing expectation even today after one year he is same and even i improvized as a person to being with him. l knew it was best deciosn for all of us. It was a difficult thing to do but we both wouldn’t have been happy together. After one year i m hoping he will get all success and my best wishes for him because he was my first love and now we all moved on our life. I just want to say find love dont thing liking some one is love and dont share bed easily lol.. For them who are in love everything can wait .
This is story of kritika, aakash and soham.
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